m.a.a.f

Masalah...

Konflik...

Terhadap??

Tanggungjawab...

Persahabatan...

Jiwa...

Pelajaran...

Dan banyak lagi...

Beban?

Mengapa begini?

Kenapa diperlakukan sebegini rupa?

Oh Tuhan

Ku yakin dengan ayat-Mu

"Allah tidak akan membebankan hambaNya,

melainkan dengan kemampuannya sahaja."

Ku bersaksi dengan Al-Baqarah ayat 286 itu

tiada sedikit keraguan pun

Ku juga yakin,

Setiap masalah ada penyelesaiannya

Demikian itu ku terus mencari jalan penyelesaian

agar dapat meringankan

apa yang ku sangkakan beban

namun pengalaman rupanya yang ku pikul

Oh Tuhan..

Ku memohon kekuatan dari-Mu

Ingin sahaja ku menangis memikirkan nasibku

Apakan daya

Hati terlalu keras untuk dikikis

Dengan air mata keinsafan

yang tak dapat ku alirkan

namun ku tak berhenti

berdoa dan berharap

Kau ampunkan aku

dan lembutkan hatiku

Maaf

kerana ku sentiasa menyakiti dirimu

Maaf

kerana ku selalu membuat diri mu marah padaku

apakan daya

because this oneself,

cant be honest with you

any more

Maaf

kerana ku menyusahkan dirimu

dan melibatkan dikau

dalam kehidupanku yang tak tentu hala ini

Apa harus ku buat?

Teruskan......

Sabar...

Belajar...

Doa...

I'll be honest

Since 'Honesty is the best policy'

But first I must know

how to be honest with myself

So that no one will be hurt by me

again and again....

~ Sorry seems to be the hardest word ~

But still,

I'm very sorry

h.u.j.a.n

Assalamu'alaikum wbt..

Fuuhh... apsal berhabuk je blog ak nie.. hmm... *buat2 pkir*

Laa, dah dua bulan ak x update ye.. hahaha.. sori la ye.. *sori kat sape ek? ntah ad org bace ke x blog ak ni.. haha.. but i know there is someone read my blog.. (camne taw?)..
dah dia kata "kesian ikan kat blog awak"
mule2 terpinga2 la jgak, apa maksud sebenar dia.. then, dia gtaw "dah sebab lama sgt awak xupdate.." haha.. sy duk pkir2 camne n ape laa yg membuatkn dia kata 'kesian'.. sy igtkan ikan kat blog sy ni semakin kurus ke apa.. haha,.. anyway, thanks ye.. hehe~

ok.. berbalik kpd topik tajuk post sy ni.. haa.. semalam hujan kat BANDARAYA(?) Kangar ni.. tapi nk citer dlu pengalaman sebelum sampai Perlis ni.. (ad org tye ke?).. adoi laa.. haha*

Kelmarin, jam 10.00 pagi, sy bgn pagi (slps tido balik ye..) then makan breakfast.. bla..bla..bla, smpai la pukul 11.00 pagi.. sy dan keluarga gerak laa ke stesen bas sbb bas SEPATUTNYE gerak kul 11.45 pagi... smpai2 stesen, sy cari laa mane bas Shamisha ni.. last2 jumpe la jgak alhamdulillah *naseb baek.. huhu* jauh di hujung bas tu gi park.. *nk sembunyi dari sape ntah.. huhu*

sy pun segan silu masuk la bas tu dan letak barang2 di seat sy.. kat belakang tu.. sy suke duk belakang2 ni, wpun ramai yg kate xbest sbb dekat ngan enjin la, ntah ap lagi jwpn diorg.. huh.. pastu sy pun turun la balik dari bas tu, nk teman kn mak dan adik sy *err bukan diorg ke yg temankn?* sembang2 skit sebelum bas bertolak.. pastu ad sebuah lagi bas Shamisha baru je smpai.. sy pun tercengang la jgak.. tapi secara logik nye, bas tu baru je smpai.. so mesti la bas yg first ni bas sy.. then mari la one guy ni (pekerja agakn ye).. ditanye nye, bas ke kangar yg mane.. then dia point kat bas yg baru smpai.. pastu sy tye la, "yg bas ni?".. dia jawab "bas ni ke baling".. alahai silap bas la plak sy ni.. sy pun cepat2 laa amik barang2 dari bas-ke-baling tu, terus naek bas ke kangar.. fuuh, alhamdulillah.. naseb baek.. hehe

bile naek bas tu, cari la jgak mane seat sy ni.. bile jumpe je, tgk ad org plak duk kat seat sy yg empuk, selesa, lagi jauh dari insan-insan lain.. dia tidur plak tu.. ish nk di-baling-je-bas kat muka dia nk suh bangun.. plus2, time tu sakit perut yg amat and kerusi yg sy terpaksa duduk setelah dicuri tu x best langsung.. huh..

tapi yelaa.. Nabi Muhammad s.a.w sarankan kite untuk bersabar.. so sabor jelah..smue tu sy simpan jelah.. ad la jgak berharap bile laki tu nk turun dari bas tu, nk je sy salam n ucap kat dia "Bang.. Lain kali duduk la kat tempat sendiri, sbb bile duk kat kerusi org laen, takkan la orang tu suke2 je tgk abang amik tempat dia kan.. confirm dia sumpah2 je kat abang.. kalu dia x redha, ap akan jadi pada keluarga abg nanti.. susah tuu... silap2 masuk neraka sbb someone xmeredhai tanpa disedari.. tu pun xleh nk kata tanpa disedari gak, sbb abg sje2 je amik kerusi dia.." haa.. itulah monolog yg tak perlu sy luahkan.. sy redha dan terus jelah tido di kerusi yang sy cuba untuk menerima nye.. haha

pastu, smpai la ke seberang perai.. tetibe tgk jalan, "aik bas ni nk ke mane? bukan sepatutnye masuk jalan yg tu ke? hmm.. maybe ad short cut kot" last2 tanggapan short cut menyeleweng pabila bas tu naek jambatan.. terus ke butterworth.. alahai lmbt la sy smpai kalu camni.. sy terus mendengar lagu.. then pak cik driver bas mcm buat pengumuman penting je.. so sy pun cabut la earphone yg ketika itu sedang ralek mendengar lagu daripada kumpulan Rast.. "Sesape yg ke Jitra, Alor Star dan KANGAR, gi naek bas belakang ye".. haa?? apehal.. pastu dia gtaw la bas ni ad problem ap ntah.. so sy pun naek la bas yg dibelakang tu.. keluar dari bas rosak tu, tgk bas kat belakang.. WAAHH!! Bas Dua Tingkat tuuu.. alhamdulillah.. ap yg diidam selama ni tercapai.. haha... naek lah saya ke dalam bas dua tingkat tu.. siyesly excited woo.. wuahahaha.. *ooppss.. sori2.. jge manner.. hehe* then bas tu pun gerak lah ke destinasi yg dituju..seronok tgk kat luar, plus naek tingkat dua bas tu.. hehe

alor star.. tulah destinasi bas dua tingkat ni.. sy pun terus laa ke kaunter tye, "camne ni kak.. bas sy spatutnye ke kangar, tp break kat butterworth, then naek bas yg stop kat alor star ni je?" pastu akak tu smbil ditemani seorg assistant laki, suh sy tggu sat.. sy pun tggu laa.. then ad laa one brader ni, tye nk balik kangar ke.. sy pun jwb la, Ye.. pastu dia pun gi ejah ngan beberapa bas, then alhamdulillah ad la bas yg nk ke kangar.. so saya pun naek la bas tu.. sekali lagi, Bas Dua Tingkat tuu.. haha.. ke'excited'an sy x abih lagi.. bas dua tingkat yg first sy duk tgh, kali ni sy duk depan skali.. peerrgghh.. memg syok lahh.. subhanAllah.. Allah gantikan MISERY sy yg sikit ngan NIKMAT yg sgt byk.. Alhamdulillah~

Then sampai laa ke Kangar at 7.30pm.. time tu H.U.J.A.N (baru balik pada topik post..haha).. sy pun duk rilex2 lu, selesaikn hutang ngan Allah dlu, then pikir camne nk balik maktab.. sy call kengkawan, tapi sume ad kat laen.. nk sy tepon yg bwk motor, kesian 6t dia basah plak.. teksi - MALAS r.. hoho.. then sy bjalan la sikit ke 7-11 yg jauh mane dari stesen bas tuh.. sy beli roti sbb xmkn lagi dari tgh hari.. huhu.. ntah knape, sy turut membeli payung.. then sy pun BERJALAN(?)

yup.. sy pun berjalan la dari 7-11 ke maktab.. it does sounds crazy, n of course nobody will believe me if i'd say so.. haha.. actually, sy sronok sgt time tu.. keseronokan yg xmungkin sy dapat jika naek kete, or motor, even cycling also.. hehe.. sambil berjalan tu, dapat la mesej daripada sum1, nk mintak tolong amik kalu hujan xberhenti, di kuala perlis.. aish.. camne ni.. sy pun tye laa pukul brape nk suruh pi amik.. then sy pun bajet2 la mase, dan meneruskan perJALANan.. amik feel..sy suke sgt hujan.. seriyesly.. ntah knape.. hehe.. laen kali sy bwat post lah knape sy suke hujan ni.. hehe~

Alhamdulillah smpai ke maktab jam 9.30pm.. janji nk amik diorg kul 9.30pm.. haha.. terok betol la sy ni.. so sy pun mesej kat diorg kate sy akan lambat skit.. pastu sy jalan lagi dari pondok pak guard, ke krete sy.. oleh kerana dah janji ngan org, sy pun lekas2 lah panaskan enjin dan terus keluar pi amik diorg.. alhamdulillah.. naseb baek diorg xmarah.. especially 'yg tu'.. hahaha.. gurau je.. sy dengar diorg crite, seronok.. enjoy sakan diorg pi S.P.. maklum lah masing2 pelepas hajat.. haha~

then sy pun terus laa menuju ke Maktab, htr diorg, salah sorg tu kate, kalu dia ad pakwe, dia nk date dlm kete sy je.. hmm... kalu gitu sy nk date kat mane kalu dia dah amik.. hahaha.. *ok2 enough with the jokes* lepas htr diorg, jam menunjukkan jam 10.15pm.. makan pun belom lagi.. pikir2 nk kluar ke x.. last2, pi koperasi je.. time tu betol2 mase arsenal menjaringkan gol dan gol tu gol kemenangan bagi mereka yg menentang Manchester United.. Tahniah buat The Guns, tp MU confirm naek balik.. sy taw tu.. huhu.. di koperasi, sy beli laa beberapa kotak air dan sedikit makanan bagi mengisi perut yg dari tengah hari xmkn.. hahaha.....

then, my night ends when i enter my room, leave a message to -sum1-, then accidently + unconciously fall asleep.. haha

- sometime, there are things that are meaningless by others..
but it is really meaningful to me... like the rain -
- so make your day -

5 Minit Gelak Ketawa! (Lawak 1)

1. Accident Lah Pulok!

Dalam hujan lebat, di malam gelap gelita, jalan tak berapa nampak, aku cari jalan mudah, ikut kereta depan. Ada lah dalam setengah jam aku ikut kereta tu. Sekali tiba-tiba kereta tu brek emergency. Apa lagi, aku tersondol belakang kereta dia!

Aku turun dalam hujan lebat & marah pemandu tu sebab berhenti mengejut.

Tapi muka dia nampak hairan betul! Mana tak nya, aku marah dia dalam garaj kereta rumah dia!!!


2. Sofiah Panjat Pokok.

Sofia merupakan seorang dara yg cantik lagi rupawan. Kira dalam kampung, dia lah miss kampung! Tapi sayangnya sewaktukecil, Sofiah telah jatuh dari katil tidur lalu otaknya kurang seimbang (otak senget daaa!)

Satu hari Sofiah telah disuruh oleh emaknya untuk membeli kelapa. Lalu dia pun pergi ke kedai Pak Daniel. Walaupun usianya dah lanjut tapi Pak Daniel masih gagah & kuat (penangan Viagra+Tongkat Ali). Setibanya di kedai Pak Daniel, terdapat beberapa lagi pemuda-pemuda kampung yg sedang lepak kat situ.

Sofiah: Kelapa 1 biji...parut buang kulit.
Pak Daniel: Nak buat apa dengan kelapa ini?
Sofiah: Tak tahu, mak suruh beli.
Pak Daniel: Hari ni Pak Daniel rasa murah hati...kalau Sofiah dapat panjat pokok kelapa & ambil kelapa tu, Pak Daniel bagi free.

Sofiah dengan semangatnya memanjat pokok kelapa tu. Pak Daniel & pemuda-pemuda kampung yg lepak kat situ pun mengerumuni di bawah pokok kelapa itu. Mereka pandang ke atas dengan penuh berahi. Oleh kerana syok sangat, Pak Daniel suruh Sofiah turun naik pokok kelapa tu beberapa kali untuk ambil beberapa biji dia nak.

Sofiah pun pulang ke rumah dengan senang hati membawa kelapa parutnya & beberapa biji lagi. Tiba di rumah, emak Sofiah terperanjat kenapa banyak sangat kelapa.

Mak Sofiah: Sofiah, apasal banyak sangat kelapa ni?
Sofiah: Hari ni Pak Daniel beri percuma kalau Sofiah sendiri yg panjat pokok & ambil kelapa tu. Pandai kan Sofiah mak?
Mak Sofiah: Sofiaaahhh!!! (mak nya menjerit!). Dia orang semua tu nak tengok seluar dalam kau! Sebab tu dia kasi free!
Sofiah: Ye ke mak?...Eh...eh...nasib baik Sofiah tak pakai seluar dalam...=P


3. Lari Dari Rumah.

Seorang suami baru sahaja bertengkar dengan isterinya. Habis bertengkar, secara tiba-tiba sahaja isterinya terus mengemas barang-barangnya ke dalam beg.

"Kenapa?" Si suami bertanya.
Isterinya terhenti sebentar. Dia merenung suaminya itu lalu berkata:
"Kita sudah berkahwin 15 tahun. Dalam masa tu, rumah ni tak pernah aman! Asyik bertengkar saja. Saya sudah tak tahan. Saya nak tinggalkan rumah ni!"

Lelaki itu berfikir sebentar. Dia kemudian berlari ke dalam biliknya dan membawa keluar sebuah beg pakaian.

"Betul juga kata awak. Saya pun dah tak tahan dengan rumah ni! Saya nak ikut awak keluar rumah ni! Jom!"


4. Apa Bezanya Antara Aurat & Urat?

AURAT & URAT adalah 2 perkata yg berbeza. Namun begitu, apabila melihat perempuan yg terlalu mendedahkan aurat, urat lelaki akan membengkak di sesuatu kawasan...Kawasan mana? Biarlah rahsia...hehe! =P


5. Anda Orang ke Orang Utan?

Orang yg tidak pernah peduli atau kisah langsung tentang wang ringgit, pangkat, kedudukan, harta dunia & tidak pernah juga runsing pasal akhirat ialah orang Utan!

taken from : http://nazreey.blogspot.com/2009/06/5-minit-gelak-ketawa-lawak-1.html

New style, new spirit, new things~

Bismillahirrahman nirrahim..

Alhamdulillah, after a few days (?) of not updating the blog, now i came up with the idea to change the style (just by changing the templates actually..) well may this makes me more spirited (really?..) to upload new things and information... and I've decided to use this blog of mine to ExIA so that 'she' will be spread to the whole world insyaAllah... hopefully there are some one reads and spread them and insyaAllah you'll be Bless....

til then, wassalam~!!

Crossing The Divide

Every week I attend a madrasa in East London mosque. I'm not a muslim, I go as a teacher. All the other tutors teach the Qur’an, but I teach art and design and indirectly english language and general knowledge.

When I describe this activity, I am greeted with incredulity from my own community where madrasa is a dirty word, friendly mosque is an onxymoron and teaching belong to proper teacher. The apparent incongruity of my work in this mosque strikes me too, but the immediate reality is straightforward.” The Children like you and you like the children” is how imam puts it. Here is a group of children aged between five and 15 who are thirsty for knowledge, keen to express themselves and anxious to know boundaries. Though perseverance and accomodation, I have carved out a privileged role where I feel that what I’m doing is worthwhile.

“ ARE YOU A MUSLIM, MISS?” asks Khadija who are refastening her hijab as I rinse paintbrushes. Even though I am familiar figure and even though they already know the answer, one of these children may suddenly stop and pose the question once more just to be sure.

Another time, Rizwan asks why I attend the mosque and I tell him as a guest. “Oh I get it, you’re like tourist here”. I’ve never regularly attend the church and yet I’ve been to this mosque, more times than I can remember. It’s a place where I sometimes feel spiritually transported. As I busy myself on the carpet sorting colours and papers after what is always an exhausting class, I am soothed by the AZAN of evening prayers.

I did not originally set out to teach in a mosque because it was a religious environment but because it was the most direct channel to a close community. It was my friend Riaz who set me in this path. I met Riaz in 2004 when he was a minicab drivers. In time, Riaz suggested I offer a free classes in the Pakistani Community.

My first experienced of madrasa was on the day after 7/7 London bombing. The imam had agreed to a project for two large collective panels on the themes of Mecca for the boys and Medina for the girls and I arrived laden with felt, sequins, ribbons and paints. The sights of so many staring children in their white jubbas and skull caps was daunting. Still, the mosque needed the distraction and so did I.

My classes in east London not just about art. They are also about mutual respect and cooperation. I regularly invoke the Qur'an to chide the children for foul language, backbiting or violent behaviour. And I apply the same rules to myself. It's been a gradual process with occasional lapses, but I am now much more careful about blaspheming and losing my temper. I have stopped swearing, smoking and drinking. What a result!

www.iluvislam.com
Source: Reader`s Digest June 2009
Editor: NuurZaffan

end of 2010 > Malaysia won AFF Suzuki Cup < great start of 2011

Oh my God.. it's 2011 already.. fuh fuh no need to panic...

oh yeah nearly forgot..
assalamua'alaikum... hehe how are you today? (is there any one will answer this? haha)
whew it 's been a day today..
many things happened today and also yesterday...

well before that, i would like to express my grateful to God because Malaysia for the first time won the AFF Suzuki Cup.. CONGRATES GUYS!! YOU RAWK!!! hahaha XDDD


when they play at Stadium Bukit Jalil, they've already take Indonesia 3-0.. it's like a miracle.. i mean, i never seen Malaysian players were playing very nice and beautiful.. i thought in that game, they were just going for defend, but 3 to 0? my mistake then.. hahaha
i think this is the first time i see for seriously of Malaysia's matches.. and it turned out very2 good.. haha XD
since they already have three goals, maybe in Indonesia they'll just defend it so that Indonesian player will never catch up... i think they must've remembered the history two years ago, when in Malaysia they manage to get one goal, but when in Indonesia they're counterattacked by FIVE??!! man that's very......(no comment).....




anyway, when they played in Indonesia, i saw they are very defensive, leaving Safee Sali alone as the offense.. the defend are GREAAT..

plus ++ the Malaysian goalkeeper from Kelantan, Khairul Fahmi... oh man he's so awesome... even when the Indonesian player shoot a very fast ball and quite far from the box (hard to guess the exact ball to catch), he managed to catch it like it's just a ball thrown by a boy.. in simper words, the ball is just like a magnet to his hands.. no wonder he's quite popular now, especiallyh among the girls.. maybe if i'm a girl i might as well fall from him (WTH??) hahaha... i'm grateful of who i am today.. hehe ;-)



the whistle for second game is blown.. Indonesia player are playing quickly in order to get over the points they've lost.. then a miracle happened.. the ball was with Safee Sali (actually many times, but this time is special)... Safee Sali ran with the ball and in front of the goalkeeper, he shot with his FIERCE strike, and it's GOOOAAALLLL!!! yeah 1-0 for Malaysia... well this means they never hesitated when the chance to shoot appeared even though they're already at Safe Zone.. but the End whistle not yet blown.. Indonesia got very stressed and they have make their counterattack.. then, suddenly they make a GOAL.. oh man, but it's ok now it's 1-1.. I hope Malaysia make a goal again... but my hope shattered.. Indonesia manage to get another goal, and it's 2-1...
Phreeettt!!! the end whistle had blown, and i kinda sad Malaysia was lost.. still Malaysia won by the aggregate by 4-2.. yeah XD! haha.. it's a very good match anyway.. my father said, it's a good thing Indonesia manage to win in their own territory, even though they lost by aggregate.. at least their pride is not lost when Malaysia got the first goal in their territory... anyway Alhamdulillah everything went smoothly, and PM of Malaysia had declared 31st of December is a holiday since it's the first time Malaysia won a cup after a long time... hoho\\

from the match i got a lot of morals (perhaps)....
1. teamwork is an important asset to win something (Wonder Pets are right after all.. haha)
2. you must always make progress, and it ain't a waste at all
3. grab the opportunities, even when you're in Safe Zone...
4. actually many more... but kinda tired to think and type at the same time.. huh

wow.. i never thought it's tiring to type... haha... i'll bring up my yesterday and today story another time.. insyaAllah~






ooh and for my artwork here's the new one.. hehe do comment (anyone....pleasee...huhu)

huh.. got to rest now.. wassalam and thanks!!

Melukis daa

Salam.. maaf lame x update blog nie.. nk isi, mcm2 hal plak ad..
dan terima kasih atas kesabaran dan ke'consisten'an anda dlm melayari blog ini (err.. ad org bace ke? haha)

papepon, back to the topic... untuk tahun baru ni, saya berazam untuk buat beberapa komik, especially Islamik punye... maklum laa, Nabi S.A.W pernah bersabda, "Sampaikanlah, walaupun hanya satu ayat je".. Therefore, saya yg suke melukis ni, berusaha untuk menyampaikan ajaran Baginda melalui komik2 yg bakal mendatang.. (actually tgh buat skrg ni, xsiap je lagi.. will upload soon.. hehe)

(gambar hiasan)

Lukisan saya masih xsmart lagi, tapi sy akan selalu improve.. baru2 ni dapat inspirasi daripada ramai artis2 tempatan, termasuk lah sahabat saya sndiri Ahmad Fitri (bukan artis, tapi lukisan dan komik, MANTAAPP).. nk crite pasal sahabt saya ni, saya kenal dia sejak Tingkatan Empat.. tapi dia kata dia kenal saya lagi awal daripada tu, bcoz of misunderstanding.. papepon, kami secara official jadi kawan pada masa Form Four tu..

(Fitri - mempromote DA nye)

mase tu, saya tgk lukisan dia, memg HEBAT.. dia ad buat komik, tp xletak tajuk rase nye..dan komik tu secara x sengaje terjatuh dari ting 3 di institut kami sekarang (sorry bro my mistake.. huhu T_T ) anyway.. lukisan dia dah byk improve dan dia pon dah semakin mahir dalam menggunakan application spt Adobe Photoshop, Paint Tool Sai dan lain2.. nk tgk komik terbaru dia, haa pergilah laman web ni > klik sini <>Fitri (my friend)




















- Lavendra Ain Hafizah



















- Irfan F-One-R (pelukis Smash!20 dan Hyperman)


















- Aman Wan
and many more actually.. haha
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haa.. ni baru lukisan sy.. masih perlu byk improvement.. nasib baek ad inspirasi, kalu x, huh harapan laaa nk jd kemah (slang terengganu) haha...